I MUST BE GETTING OLD...

I don't know if I'm getting old or if I have just had it with men...a little of both I think.  My San Diego man called today to talk. He said he really enjoyed talking to me and wanted to come up today, Saturday.  I begged off.

Vet man called after the baseball game he attended and asked if I wanted him to bring me dinner, I declined.  A scotch and water alone sounded better to me. He really is a nice man.

Then my tall age appropriate guy called and asked me to go to listen to some music tomorrow, Easter Sunday, in Newport Beach.  I told him to call me tomorrow and ask me.  He agreed to do so.

I was invited by a good friend of mine's daughter to come to brunch with them and I again said no.  I don't know what's wrong with me, but it all sounds like a giant effort.  My Age appropriate guy said that astrologically things were in the commode until April 14th.  He may be right. 

So my kitties and I are staying  home and enjoying our time together.  Sometimes doing nothing is better then doing anything.

FLOOD GATES.....

Seems I've opened the flood gates of dating.  I've heard from several men in the last day, some that I've been in contact before a year or so ago and one that is a newbie.

All of these men wanted to go out this weekend.  The new one from San Diego wanted to come up yesterday to meet me in person.  Since I wasn't feeling great I declined and told him perhaps tomorrow would be better. He said, " if you'd like we can do Saturday or Sunday. 

Then a call from a man that is traveling to Afghanistan for business....something to do with food and a company that supplies it.  He wanted to go out Friday too and when I declined asked, " how about Saturday or Sunday." I sense a theme. So now I have to decide if I want to meet the new man who is also an international traveler for business or see the one that I know from before. Or do nothing.  I'm leaning towards nothing.

Vet man emailed me all day yesterday and didn't know if he was available for Saturday.  Since I didn't have him in my radar book I didn't care what he was doing. Although he checked on me last night to see how I was feeling. He is "plan B" as I am for him.

A man that was just chatty last year contacted me.  He lives about one hundred miles away and wanted to touch base.  He has always been very respectful and just benign which I think is a plus.  I've no interest romantically, but he is nice to email.

Dez actually sent me an Easter card.  He seems to be trying to be a good boy, but he is who he is and I'm still not buying his good boy routine.  He is spending the weekend with his step grand kids up North.

Oh dear, as I'm typing this my cell rang and it was Vet man.  He was checking to see how I was doing today and if I needed anything.  He offered to bring dinner for me tonight.  I still am not up to par and basically don't care if I see anybody, including him. 

It seems when it rains it pours.  I really didn't want to start this dating dance again.  I'm not sure if it is better to stay home and be bored or to go out and be bored.  All of it seems to be a giant waste of time.

Have a good Saturday.

ACHY.....

Last night I went to a meeting and as I was leaving I could barely walk.  My right knee, the one I had the replacement knee done, decided to ache and hurt behind the knee.  By the time I got home my whole body was hurting.  Wrists, legs shoulders etc.

I went to bed early and couldn't get comfortable.  I did sleep a little but woke up at three a.m.  I decided to get up and take the last two Hydrocodon pills I had from my surgery.  I woke up feeling a little better, but it is still there.  I'm now trying Aleve, the miracle pill that works for everything, at least for me. I'm still having aches and I imagine it will go away. I don't feel bad, just achy.

I talked to two of my friends this morning who are alone and widows.  It is interesting how the feelings you have are universal no matter how good or bad things ended. We were lamenting how different things were and how none of us expected our lives to end up like it has.  I guess the biggest thing one can do is adjust.  Life is to short.

Vet man sent me a text last night to say he had a late night in Garden Grove and was happy to be home and also to say goodnight.  I will say he is consistent.  This morning he sent me a text asking how I was.  I sent him a reply relaying my aches and pains.  Not that it will do any good.

Dez is headed North for the weekend.  He said he was leaving from LAX and his son-in-law would  have a car waiting for him.  Since his daughter is not his biological daughter I assume (I know assume is a word that can drive you crazy) that his ex-wife will be going with him.  It sounds like a relationship that one of my good friends has with her ex-husband.  They are in business together and are actually spending Easter in New York City.  He boyfriend is in England at this time and will probably be there for months.

Relationships are so different then what they use to be way back when.  Since I seem to have a foot in both camps I have to decide if I like either camp. I've never liked being an afterthought I know what I should pick.

Off to do some things around the house.

ANOTHER CALL.....

I had a cell phone call from the man that I saw several years ago.  He wants to take me to dinner per his message.  I was out with my girlfriend for lunch and missed the call.  I always think it is rude to have your cell phone on when you are with someone else.  I did call him back that evening but missed him. I left a message so we will see if he gets back to me.

We were discussing, at lunch yesterday, how everyone seems to be so busy you can't keep up with things.  It seems that life is getting more hectic instead of less.  Technology hasn't made things easier, it has made things more confused and it takes up so much time out of ones day.

I spent the afternoon at the bank yesterday trying to get paperwork straightened out.  You would think that at the beginning of a process the bank would know exactly what they needed, but oh no, they drag things out until the last minute and then ask for a copy of something they should have known they needed.  I know....bitch, bitch, bitch....

I heard from Dez too.  He says he is looking forward to seeing me and has decided to start calling me Luccia instead of Lucy...I'm not sure what that's about.  I think he just likes to amuse himself by changing things.  I sent him an email saying where the origin of our names came from.  Since I have many names from him, they are all a little different in meaning.  French, Italian, English meanings from laurel, light, beautiful etc.  I told him he could choose.  He sent an email back saying that beautiful worked for him.  I swear this man is a pile of contradictions.  His name fits him, wolf, desire and longing to name a few.  Italian and Spanish in origin. It is all very interesting.

Vet man send me five emails this morning.  He is getting to be more reach out and touch me with his words.  A man is a man is a man!

And last but not least.  There is a man in San Diego that is a world traveler....that is per his profile,,,, that wants to meet me and said he can't imagine that I would want to meet him. The way I feel about it is nothing ventured, nothing gained but he will have to come to me.  Since I don't contact anyone and they contact me the ball is in their court.

Since I've more or less shook myself and stopped having a pity party where Dez was concerned I feel a whole lot better.  It has been a tough couple of years being alone.  When you are married as long as I was it takes a while to regroup.

One positive thing yesterday was the boutique I modeled for asked me to model for them again at a country club near by.  I don't know if I'm going to but it is nice to be asked.

I'm off to clean floors....what fun.

VETS...

Waiting for my girlfriend to come pick me up so we can head down to the boutique that I modeled for to pick up the pants the gal forgot to bring.  After that we will go to lunch.

Last night I was picked up by some friends and we went to the Elks to attend the installation of the new officers and for a couple of us to pack boxes for the Vets to send to Afghanistan.  We managed to pack twenty six of them.  The items are greatly appreciated by the veterans who receive them.  We include candies, soups,  books, cookies, letters from grade school kids, toothpaste, brushes and any little item that is packable and will remind them of home.

The meeting was a little long but the new E.R. is very entertaining and it wasn't boring.  The Grand Pooh Bah was to funny as he led everyone that was being installed around the floor.  He is a tall man and most of the people were short so he was basically dragging his charges around the floor.  No decorum in that group.

My Vet man had a medical procedure today and I just heard from him.  Everything was fine so he is good to go.  One does have to maintain as one gets older.

Nothing else new right now so will sign off.

FORGOT HOW MUCH FUN EMAILS CAN BE..

I have officially rejoined the ranks of the prowlers on the dating site again.  I only dipped my foot in one this time.  Some of the men I heard from had contacted me previously and where happy to have me back.  I'm not so sure I'm happy to be back, but at least it is entertaining.

One boy and I do mean boy, age twenty four sent me a "your so sexy" email.  Now, I wonder what a young man, that actually isn't bad looking, would even think when he decided to whip out an email to a women that is old enough to be his grandmother and maybe great grandmother.  Interesting how the male mind works.

The other young man lived in Texas, age thirty one, sent me a cute email that said he had married me, divorced me, decided I could keep the condo in Hawaii all in his mind, and he would tear up the pre-nup. He really was amusing.  He also said he came to L.A. once in a while would like to be friends because I could teach him somethings.  Granted I could, but I never did like being a teacher.  I figure you should have you PhD in manhood before you meet me.  So I won't be answering back that's for sure.

Another Michigan man, a little older, but not much said he comes out and has a condo in Newport Beach and wouldn't I get together with him when he was here.  No way and another one that I'm not answering.

There is a man in San Diego a little more age appropriate that per his profile has traveled the world for business and is now staying put.  He did say he would be more then happy to visit some of the places again if his future partner wanted to.  At least he is 6'3" tall which is more then most of the men are on the site. 

The other guy, who says he loves older women and has contacted me about two years ago, is back trying to get me to meet him.  He isn't someone I want to meet so I'm not answering his many emails.  He is persistent though and I have to give him "a" for effort.

So my toes are wet in the dating pool and hopefully I can get my whole foot in sooner or later.  There are so many fish in the sea, just not appropriate ones. 

STARTING ANOTHER WEEK....

The Fashion Show was a great success.  There were over three hundred women in attendance and the money raised for charity was substantial.  I will say this was probably the most confused Fashion Show I've ever modeled in for anything. 

The gal that was in charge is very creative and artsy which leaves out organized.  Clothes that were suppose to be shown didn't show up, no one knew what scene we were suppose to wear what and at the last minute she decided we should be dramatic and dance to Phantom of the Opera. 

By the way, that was the theme of the show this year.  Phantom of the Opera.  However with the above being said, only the gals that were modeling knew how confused things were backstage.  the audience thought everything was wonderful and I suppose that is all that counts. with five changes of clothes and accessories it was a mad dash for everyone to get dressed and fluffed up.

Vet man called and asked me to go to the yacht club for an early dinner Sunday night. I said yes.It had been a rough week and after the Fashion show I was exhausted.  Stomping around in five different pairs of high heels for eight hours took its toll.  Not as young as I use to be that is for sure.  I was in bed early on Saturday night.

Right before Vet man was to pick me up I had a phone call from Dez.  I honestly thought we weren't going to see each other again, although due to some circumstances between us, neither one of us can say good bye at this point.  The conversation was actually decent and surface skimming.  He had a busy weekend with work and was way up in the valley area on Sunday.  He's leaving Friday to go North for Easter to be with one group of grand kids.  I just told him to have a good week and enjoy them.  I figure that the least interested I act, the better off I am.

He said he is planning on seeing me on the Friday after Easter but since his one son's baby is due around that time I just told him if he was able fine and if not fine too. after his cell cut out four times and he called back four times, we finally said goodbye.  He ended it by saying "good bye sweetie,: now where did that come from?

Today I'm off for a meeting and then home to pay bills.....how fun.