THE TOE.........

I had my stitches taken out today on my left toe and was pleasantly surprised that it was number one painless, and number two,  hardly bruised or swollen.  I was really dreading this surgery and it turned out to be one of the best I've ever had.  Go figure!  Goes to show one should not look at YouTube as everyone is different.  YouTube freaked me out!

I also thought that I would have to wear this ugly shoe/boot for another month and a half and the doctor said that as soon as the pin is removed, which is April 15th, I can start to wear regular shoes.

After I had the stitches out I had plans to go to dinner with a long time and very good girlfriend of mine.  She came to the house and we went to BJ's where we sat for three hours talking.  After dinner we came back to the house and talked for another hour.  She has been a long time partner in crime and is the only person I know that is almost of the same thinking as I am....refreshing.

My friend and her husband are leaving for their home in England soon.  They use to have their own private jet, which was wonderful, but due to the economy sold it.  They have chartered a plane to go to England.  The reason for the charter and not Commercial is due to the fact she wants to take her three dogs with her to her England house not to mention that commercial flying these days is the pits.

If I had know that they were going to do that I would have hitched a ride, although the timing is lousy with toes etc. they will be there for four months, so perhaps if things go okay physically and financially for me, I may take a little trip.

I had an email from Vetman and he called a meeting of the original committee for the Second Annual Marine Corp Birthday Ball.  I don't really know if I want to get involved again, but probably will.

I did have a nice Get Well card from the head of the Fashion Show that is being held soon.  Normally about three hundred or so attend this event.  She said she really missed me being in the Show.  I do think my days of tromping a ramp are over.  Modeling and doing promotional shows for years is what got my feet in the trouble they are in, not to mention my knees. Those pointy toes shoes are murder and I still wore them up until a couple months ago.

Seems maintenance takes up a lot of my time.  Maintenance on myself and maintenance on the house.  It is a never ending saga.

Nothing from the boys so far, Bruno sent an email in answer to a question from me on Monday.  I'm sure he is up to his you know what in alligators.

Life goes on and I need to get cracking.

DAY AFTER....

Another Holiday over mostly successfully.  I usually dread all of the holidays and always have, but yesterday was just fine.

Vet man picked me up, as always he was early.  He was suppose to pick me up at noon and showed up forty five minutes early.  I think that being that early is just as bad as being late.  I do know that about him from all the meetings we attended last year. He brought me a Russel Stover Coconut Creme chocolate egg.  He is always baring gifts.

It was nice having help dragging thirty six deviled eggs and a huge Lilly plant to my friends house.  Vet man had met his girlfriend earlier that morning for coffee and it ended up with lots of drama.  He said she told him that he was the fault of making her miserable. I don't think he really likes her that much or he wouldn't be crabbing about having to drive twenty five minutes to see her.  Needless to say, I reminded him that Bruno will drive hours to see me. It will be interesting to see how long it will take before everything blows up for him with her.

I got an email from Bruno that said Happy Easter, however in the RE: area he put "You Know."  That, to me didn't relate to anything.  He has a tendency to assume that I can read his mind.  The more I thought about it the more up in the air that wording became for me.  I sent him an email late last night telling him I was being blond and what did he mean.....as I thought he meant you know it is Easter. Glad to get that one clarified.  Sometimes my mind goes to train crash thoughts....Bruno's wording.

The Easter brunch, which turned into a late afternoon brunch, was lovely.  My friend had her relatives, about fifteen of them for a sit down dinner.  Grandma's china, crystal and silver, very nice.  I'm always happy to see people do things correctly.  In this day and age it is usually buffets and sit wherever or casual BBQ's. The younger crowd, unless they come from lots of money, just do not put out the effort or work to present a table the way it should be. I just think for holidays it is nice to be formal.  Otherwise BBQ's and buffets are fine unless you are having tons of people

Vet man seemed uncomfortable and quiet which for me was a little strange for him.  I know that holidays are hard for him since his thirty three year old daughter passed away unexpectedly three years ago and the memories are still fresh.  I told him that she wouldn't have wanted him to be sad so he did make an effort by coming to the Brunch.

After dinner and before desert he wanted to leave.  Because he was the one that drove me I had no choice but to leave too.  He dropped me off and took off for whatever he had planned next. It was fine as I was tired and after several glasses of red wine was more then ready to go home and take a nap. Holidays have become a little strange through the years.  Everything changes!

My Bouncer/Tile Company owner sent me a Happy Easter text too.  I have a very casual, casual talking relationship with him and have never, nor will I, ever go out with him.  If you remember he is only fifty.  I am old enough to be his Mother, but he does keep reaching out.

So Monday is here and I have to decide what I need to do around the house.  I can't seem to focus on any one thing and God knows there are plenty of "one things" to do.

RESCUE......

Yesterday I was futzing around doing things that no one would see done.  I decided I should go through several drawers of tops that I hadn't worn for a while and wash and iron them to refresh them.  I also pulled five black maxi dresses out of the closet that I hadn't put on for a while and washed them.  Talk about bored.

While I was ironing the tops I had a text from Veteran man asking if I wanted to go to lunch.  Now, I have been in the house for almost two weeks without going outside other then a walk to the mailbox, and getting out of here sounded like a great idea.  I was starting to feel like a recluse. I told him to give me an hour to get ready and I would be more then happy to go to lunch.

He arrived with a bouquet of flowers for me, always the caring, thinking man. Bruno should take a lesson.  We went to the Blue Water Grille in the District which is near by and had a very nice seafood lunch.  One thing about Veteran man is that he is very solicitous.  He really is just a friend and he talked about his girlfriend, that he is having trouble with, and I talked about my frustrating relationship with Bruno, that is if you can call it a relationship.

It was a very nice lunch, as the place has great food and the ambiance is lovely.  After lunch we went straight back to my house where he dropped me off and went on his way.  It is nice that although this man would like more from me never pushes it.  He knows where my interest lies and understands that I really only care about Bruno.....chemistry can be a bitch. You never like the people you should like. It's that old, " I like the bad boys best,"  fatal flaw on my part.

Today I have to final up the deviled eggs I promised to bring to the Easter brunch I'm attending at my friends house in Orange. Veteran man is also invited and since I have the eggs and a huge Lilly plant to take to her place I asked him to either meet me there to help carry things in or pick me up.  He opted to pick me up. I still have the boot on from my hammertoe surgery and really do need the help.

Bruno has either flown back to the States to be in the North with his grand kids, I'm sure his ex wife will be there too since they are her children not his, or is still in Spain. He keeps all the step children and grandchildren close which is admirable although I would like less ex-wife who seems to be there for every holiday for the last three years.  I don't do well sharing and struggle with not being totally pissed about the fact he has never once included me for a holiday or anything else in his life. I need to keep him in my life for several reasons, which shall remain private.  Other then the very strong chemistry on both of our parts I know that eventually we will say good bye to each other. But the timing isn't right at this point.

The last I heard from Bruno was a text on Thursday that said he had gone to the Old Town in Madrid and visited the site of the Inquisition and was headed for the museum, I'm assuming the Prada.  It had stopped raining so he was out and about.  I never remember what he tells me mostly because it changes so I don't commit it to memory.  He was either flying home Thursday night or not.  I do remember he said he would be back in the L.A. area Monday...so we may or may not see each other next weekend.

So another Easter tomorrow....this year is going by way to fast.

BORED..........

I've been in the house since last Thursday.  I suppose it is self imposed isolation.  My foot doesn't hurt anymore and I haven't taken pills since Friday.  I still am trying to be careful walking around and have tried not to overdo.  I do need to get to Trader Joe's to shop and am trying to get myself geared up for that trip.  I promised my friend that I'd bring deviled eggs to her Easter party.

Vet man called me this morning.  This is unusual since text are his means of communication.  He is sick and he wanted to talk about Easter.  He too has been invited to the same place I have been.  He didn't know if he would be going since holidays are really tough for him.  His daughter, age thirty three, passed away several years ago, as did his parents.  He is an only child and I think the pain of the holidays are way to much for him. His other children live back East.  I did tell him he needed to cross that hurdle if he could and I think he did decide to attend. We all have our own demons.

I sent Bruno an email since he has been quiet.  I got one back that had a salutation of Buenos Diaz mi caliente Senorita....hmmm, at least he is responding.  He said it was cold and rainy in Spain and he had been working a lot and had  a couple of good meals but that was it....and he had been good.  For him that is monumental. I heard a statement on t.v. this morning that said, "it looked greener on the other side, but it was always greener where you watered it."  I may have to send him that one.

That is about it so far today, boring to say t he least.

RECOVERING.....

I've been home for almost a week now nursing my second toe on my left foot.  Years of wearing high heels with pointy toes, hours of walking and standing on them, has taken it toll on my feet.

The process recovering is longer then I would like, but when I think about it, it took years to make my feet this way.  I have a boot, stitches and a pin.  The pin, which looks like a hat pin with an aqua top, comes out in four weeks.  How fun.  It really doesn't hurt and the pin moves around without any feeling.  Oh well, this too shall pass.

Bruno is in Spain and has been for a week at an energy conference.  Seems he is taking on a new business.  He really is ADD plus, but the people that are this way make the world go around.  I wouldn't have him any other way. If you want to date someone that is totally focused on everything and everyone but you, you come to realize if you want to be in his life you take things as they come.  After almost three years of dating him I finally have gotten the picture.

There are peripheral men out there, but they are friends and I really don't have any interest in them other then that.  My bad I guess.

There is a man that has his own business in demolition, carpet etc. that really likes me.  He called last night and he talked for over an hour.  Just basically chit chat about his family and what he has done in his life  I would not go out with him on a bet.  First of all he is only fifty years old and that makes me twenty three years older.....now isn't that a picture.  I'm very lucky genetically but that is way to many years between us.

Veteran Man sent me a text this morning to see if I wanted to go to lunch.  I declined.  I'm not in the mood to socialize with anyone.  I have so much to do in this house and I can't seem to get movtivated for that either.

Saturday night my new girlfriend came over and we managed to drink way to much scotch and vodka.  We ordered a pizza and promptly fell asleep.  Thank god she spent the night.

I have to plot my plan for this week.  I really don't have much on the books, which will give me a chance to get my act together around the house. Ya right!!

WIERD......

Still having problems with the Blog site.  It comes and goes.  Today it is here.

I had a very nice dinner with the Kona girls last night in Laguna Beach.  It was good to see everyone.  Since I didn't go to Hawaii this year, with the group, I played catch up.  Lots of fun and really good food at Starfish, Asian Rim plus..

Bruno called me yesterday after I texted him.  I swear the man wouldn't give me the time of day if I didn't text him first.  He is so business focused and on his on timeline that if he even remembers me I'd be surprised. Although once in a while he does surprise me with his attentiveness

He was in Ontario where he told me he had just purchased an energy company.  Good for him and I hope it all works out for him.  He is such a work alcoholic, usually putting in a seven day week.  He works hard and plays hard.....typical driven man.  He announced he was headed for the North to meet with a man about a deal he had going a year of so ago to build a resort hotel and golf course.

I don't know how he does it.  He is so scattered all over the block and although he says he is trying to turn some things over to I don't think he can give up control  I was wondering after I talked to him, when he was  planning on letting me know he wasn't coming this weekend.

Since I'm having my toe surgery Monday I texted him that this was my last weekend I would be mobile for a while.  When he told me he wouldn't be coming over I said, "well, I'll see you the end of April or May.  He said when can you get out and when I told him approximately three days after the surgery he said there wasn't any reason we couldn't go to a movie, dinner or lunch. He said he would be here next Thursday and for me to let him know how the surgery turned out.  I told him I'd text him when I got home that day.  What I should do is not text him and see if he contacts me.

I'm not looking forward to this surgery.  For some reason I have more trepidation about this surgery then I did about my second knee replacement.  I'm so tired of all these self inflicted wounds.  My chest is still smarting from the pre-cancerous light procedure I had last Friday. I would not recommend this light procedure to anyone.  It really was horrible and it still hurts almost a week later.  Looks lovely too.  All peeling and red blotches.

Cripe you would think I'd be good to go by now, but I do have several more things scheduled.

So off today for a meeting regarding the Leading Knights Gala in June.  I probably won't be much help this time due to all my infirmities.

Hugs to all.

ONE MORE TIME....

I swear this Blog is driving me nut.  The site comes and goes at will.  This has been a rough two weeks physically.  I had a procedure done with the dermatologist that was a pre cancer light system that felt like someone was putting a hot iron to your chest for sixteen minute.  Had I known that it was going to be so painful I never would have had it done.

First they neglected to tell you that after they apply the lotion on your chest, that needs to sit for twenty four hours, you shouldn't touch your chest and then touch any other area.  Of course I touched my face prior to the light being applied and the sun just about fried me the morning of going in for the light treatment. I ran into my neighbor before I left and stood outside talking to her for a little while.  All of a sudden I got this burning rash on my neck and face, which I thought was from a couple pain pills I took.  I was so wrong.

Your chest burns like a bad sunburn and peels and scabs over after the procedure.  They did say not to peel anything because it would scar.  I would never had this done again and God forbid they do it on your face. It will take about ten days to be okay.  Ick and Ow!

Bruno has made an effort to see me.  He came down last Thursday for several hours between his appointments. I had seen him the weekend prior. He was leaving for the weekend to go to Arizona and said he would be back on Monday. Needless to say he didn't call when he got back.

This weekend is the last weekend I will be mobile due to the fact that I am having a hammertoe operation and it is a two month recovery, more or less.  This weekend is the last weekend I'll be mobile for him and he loves to go dancing. I sent him a text this morning and he answered he would call me later today. He will be leaving for Madrid the end of the month for two weeks so this weekend is that last weekend we can go out.

It will be St. Patrick's Day and I'm sure that going out will be a nightmare. I'll see what he says when he calls.

Vet man had offered to take me to my operation but I have to be there at six a.m. and then he couldn't pick me up.  I ended up getting my sweet neighbor to take me, she gets up early with her dogs, and her Girl Friday to pick me up.  Thank God for friends. I honestly don't want to be obligated to Vet man.

Tonight I have dinner in Laguna Beach with the Kona Girls at Starfish.  Four of the girls have a birthday in March, so we are celebrating.  My friend is driving me and even though she lives less then a mile or so from me I haven't seen her since before Christmas.  She is super busy with her company.

Last night I went to dinner with my ex neighbor.  It is always so great to see her and catch up.

So, other then still peeling and hurting I'm good to go.   We'll see what Bruno does or doesn't do.  I have had a "come to Jesus" about him and I'm no longer upset when he does what he does.  I either accept his behavior or not.  I am much, much calmer and since I don't want anyone twenty four seven I will enjoy him when I can and do what I want when he is absent.

I hope that all of this goes on site and cyberspace doesn't bite me in the butt again.