HAPPY HALLOWEEN......

Errand day.  Dropping subscribtions off at CVS, beauty supply house for a few things, Target for cat food and litter, postal annex for boxes and labels,  returning something,  and the cleaners where I found out they ruined the trim on my St. John knit.  They did say they were in contact with a supplier that was going to see if he could send new trim.  Good luck on that one since the knit is old and the trim probably isn't made anymore.  I swear no one does anything right.  Nothing like having a very  expensive, $1200.00 three piece knit ruined.

I sent an email to Desi saying Happy Halloween....I got one back saying Happy Halloweenie....only Desi.  He's to cute.

Veteran man has been sending me a lot of texts and calling.  It is first thing in the morning and last thing at night.  Interesting since I've only had lunch twice with him.  He did come over one afternoon and just stayed for a little while to chat.  He has asked me out for Wednesday lunch.  His birthday is in November too.  I don't know about two Scorpios, probably not a good combination. He wanted to come over again today but I told him I was busy, which I am.  He still works part time and was getting off early.  If I was smart, which I'm not, I'd make a concerted effort to like this man.  He says he would love to pamper me.  That sure would be a first.

Why is it that the one guy you want to contact you all the time doesn't and the one that you really don't care about does?  Life is full of weird.

I finished some holiday gift wrapping and puting in boxes to send to Colorado for the kids.  I need to get as much done as possible due to the up coming incapacitation.  I am not as organized as I use to be and that can be a hinderance when youare trying to get tings done.

I have so much paperwork to do for the hospital and everytime I think I'm done more shows up in the mail
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I better get ready for tonights little goblins.  I always get about 70 kids at the door.  I'm sure they bus them in from other neighborhoods as we certainly don't have that many kids in this place.

Happy Halloween all!

SLOW............

Not a whole lot going on.  I did have a few things that needed to be finished around the house and there is a big shoe looming over my head that needs to be addressed.  As everyone tells me, day by day.  My one friend has started calling me  "Mary Mayhem".....an apt nomenclature.

Veteran man has been calling me and texting me at least five times a day.  From Desi only touching base once in a while to a man that can't seem to get enough contact with me, it has struck me as a strange comparison between the two. Again, I wish I could feel more of an attraction to Veteran man but he really isn't my type.  The thing I do like about him is he is another take charge kind of guy and is willing to help me anyway he can. Whereas Desi is never around.  He isn't as tall as Desi and he is balding, but there is something there that appeals a little to me.

I'm addressing Christmas cards, yes,I know, way early, but I'm in the hospital for knee surgery, yet again, and won't be around to do any Christmas things in December.  It is hospital and re-hab, oh joy!
Nothing else going  on, it has been pretty quiet.

Good weekend all.

YACHT CLUB....

I just returned from a lovely lunch at a Newport Beach Yacht Club with Veteran man.  He is good company and seems to like me.  We sat outside and the weather was glorious.  Sunny with a light breeze and not a soul out on the water.  It is interesting to see all the yachts just sit week after week.  I wonder if any of them ever go out on the water.  Probably not. I always think they are such a great waste of money.

Veteran man wants to take me out to lunch again next Wednesday.  Do you suppose this will become an ever Wednesday occurrence? Only if I let it.

I now have the rest of the day to decide if I should go to the grocery store or head out to the ribbon shop for the extra bolts of ribbon for the thirty center pieces I need to get done for the next State function at the Hilton Hotel being held  in Ontario.

I have been feeling like I really need to re-evaluate my life and sit and have a good talk with myself.  Sometimes I feel like things are spinning out of control and I don't know how to stop it.
I feel okay mentally and just need to start afresh.  The last two years have been a whirlwind, all self induced.  It's kind of stop the world I want to get off,  type of life.  I'm planning on getting off and getting off now.  I think when you get to be my age you had better know what you want and where you are going.  I can't take many more ups and downs.

Since I never had a partner and always had to do things on my own I should be able to come to come good conclusions.  I'm hoping so.  I'm not pleased with the way things have been going and I'm the one doing it to myself.

Desi emailed  yesterday to ask what I wanted to do for my birthday.  I emailed him back and told him I didn't want to plan my own birthday, but gave him a few suggestions.  He emailed back saying, "never mind."  I know he is swamped at work, but he'll manage to arrange something.  He is my take charge man.  He said he was just checking to see if I wanted to do something special.  Since this is Orange County, special isn't in the cards.....it is such a boring County.  Sometimes I just want to run down the streets screaming........there has to be more to life.

Take care all, more later.

TUESDAY...

As I thought, the Veteran man called me again and wants to take me to lunch tomorrow.  I said yes.  He is a nice man and I suppose I could do worse. 

Desi called me last night and wanted to know what was wrong.  It has just been a hard couple of weeks and I think I came across as "cranky."  He keeps telling me that none of us can predict the future, that is so true.  However, there are inklings of what might happen. He told me I was being negative and I told him I was being realistic. I am really unhappy about his probable move to Morocco though he says nothing is set in stone.  We'll see.

My operation is coming up in November and I'm not happy about that for sure.  It was the most miserable thing I have gone through and I hate to have to go through this whole thing again. Months of re-hab and pain. not being able to drive etc.  I could shoot the previous doctor for not having done it properly ad only doing a partial.

Tonight I  have a meeting and hope to get home early.  I've spent the day cleaning half the house.  I decided to let the cleaning people go and save the money.  Taxes are coming due on both properties and it is going to be tight.

So that is it for today.  I'm off to continue my dirt quest.

SUNDAY...

The event I went to last night was very nice.  It started really early, five o'clock, and was still going on when I decide to leave.  They had hired a singer that went on forever.  People were getting up and leaving after two hours of her being obsessed with her own voice. Sitting at the same table from five o'clock until ten thirty, was also butt numbing, to say the least. There are only so many converstaions one can have with people you don't know.

The food actually was good, chicken corden bleu or beef bourginon (probably not spelled correctly) and considering it was done by all volunteers it was surprisingly very tasty.  Lots of talented people in the world.

Today there was a tea that I decided not to attend.  Several hours ago I had a phone call from the manager of the club wanting to know where I was.  Nice to be missed, but since I was out Thursday, Friday and Saturday, it was time to stay home an regroup. I think everyone forgets I'm going to be seventy two.  How did that happen?

I sent Desi an email after our Friday night together thanking him and telling him what a nice time I had with him. He responded with "It was FAB! You looked great!!  I figured that would be the last I'd hear from him since he is working seven days a week and heading North again.  However, I just now received a phone call from him asking me where I would like to go for my birthday.  I mentioned a couple places and I will email him the information.  It is very hard to find a place in Orange County to have a good dinner and dance.

So another week starts with God knows what in store.  I really have nothing on my plate at this time except for one meeting.  I did hear from the Dentist by email and the Veteran man is lurking, so I'm sure the week will bring a few outings.   I go out with these men just to keep busy until Desi returns.  Pathetic!

BETTER.....

Life really is day by day.  Some days, you just don't want to get out of bed to function and other days are really good.  I'm beginning to thing that life is manic-depressive and bi- polar.  I must learn not to over react to everything that goes on even if some of it is not good.

Yesterday I was super busy.  I had an early morning appointment, mani//pedi appointment, car appointment and then I needed to get home to get ready to go out with Desi.  During the day I had three phone calls from the Veteran man, who asked what I was doing this weekend.  I told him I was busy, so that finally ended the phone calls, at least for the day.

Last night I had a phone call, while Desi and I were in the car driving South.  I thought it was someone I knew that has been calling me. I didn't answer it, although Desi wanted me to....he loves to cause trouble.  When I finally picked up my messages on my cell this morning it wasn't who I thought it was.  It was a man that contacted me from Las Vegas, a while back, who at this point in time is in Germany and traveling all over Europe.  He gave me a phone number to call him collect and said he was heading for Instabul, Turkey. Let me get right on that!   Why he couldn't wait until he came back to the States to call me is beyond me. 
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Desi again, drove three hours to see me.  He did interview with the Sheik's people the other day and now is going to London to interview again.  This time they are flying him over on the Sheik's private jet.  I know he will get the job that he wants.  He was so over solicitous last night.  He kept telling me that he wouldn't drive as far as he does to see me if he didn't like me.  When I told him I was not thrilled with myself for getting emotionally invested in him, he said he was emotionally invested in me too. That was sure a first.  He kept telling me how fabulous I looked.  It was also the first time he has ever said he missed me. He looked great.  Black jeans, black turtle neck and a grey tweed sportscoat.  My Mr. Beverly Hills.

It is the norm, when we go out together, for people, men and women to come up to us and tell us we look terrific together.  I can't tell you how many times that has happened. We do make a striking couple if I do say so myself.  We are both tall, we love to get dressed up and are usually over dressed, but make a statement wherever we go. I don't know why people feel the need to comment on us, but they do every place we go. My parents had that same effect on people

Desi loves me to wear high heels and I kid him about being a shoe fetish man....he does look at all women's shoes and comments if they don't meet his standards. He dislikes flats. We always are happy and laughing when we are together and people do gravitate towards us because we are having such a good time together. We both are outgoing and extremely social. We have a tendency to include everyone in our halo of light.  Not interverts for sure.

 I don't know where all of this is going, but I guess I'm going to take it one day at a time and not obsess about the time he will be gone and just enjoy the time we have together.  I do have a life, although a lot of the time it is screwed up by my own volition. I will find my footing.  It has been a rough five years or so and I just need to re-evaluate me.

At this point in time Desi is working seven days a week and at several locations putting out fires  He says he is running an adult day care for his Subs that can't seem to do things on their own without being babysat by the Boss.  He is pretty demanding, the German in him, I'm sure. A perfectionist.  That makes me happy due to the fact I don't like people that are scattered and slobs.

So, tonight I have a " date" with a women that asked me to an event in South County.  I know a lot of the people that are going, so it should be a nice time.  I'm hoping to put the first part of the week behind me and go on with the second half being pleasant and expecting nothing.

I should remember that every day brings something different.

Have a wonderful weekend.

ICKY WEEK.....

Don't ask.  This was the week that was and I'm still trying to get over things.  I won't go into everything that happened, but, not all of it was bad and some was horrendous.

Tuesday I met my old friend and his daughter for lunch for his eighyith Birthday.  His daughter came a little later and we had already had a couple drinks and had ordered lunch.  It was a delightful day.  After I left them everything went down hill.  Must make myself a note to never drink Gin on the rocks.  Lethal!

Wednesday, the Veterans man picked me up and took me to lunch.  He is an interesting man and was raised in Orange Count.  Actually he had a Grand Father, or maybe it was a great Grand Father that started Heidelberg College in Ohio.  Small world.  He called me later, after our lunch date, and said he had a nice time.  I'm trying other venues, but I don't think I'm giving anyone a chance.

My brother was back in Ohio and emailed while he was there and then called me from Denver when he got back to Colorado.  He had a nice time with the relatives and said that he and his wife were pretty much scheduled the whole time.  It is really hard to  to see everyone when you are on a short time schedule with his college events.  He keeps telling me everyone is worried about me.  It has been a roller coaster of a ride the last several years.  I'm ready for things to slow down and get back to normal, but only I can make that happen.

Desi called me several times to check on me.  He had just gotten back from up North and was at his ,projects in the Valley.  He is putting out fires everywhere.  Today, Thursday, is the day that he interviews with the Sheik's representatives.  He is coming to Orange County to take me out tomorrow night, Friday, and I'll find out then how things went. I believe he will be headed for Houston sometime this weekend.  No grass under those feet.

Some idiot cut the corner to close in a parking lot and scratched my back bumper while I was parked.  I have Color Me coming out tomorrow to fix the scratches.  I used Mr. Clean on the rubber marks.  Of course, no note from said "hit and run."

Tonight is a retirement party for a lady that has been in charge of events at the Elks.  Her Grand daughter dog sat Senora .  The place won't be the same, but then nothing ever is the same is it? 

Our weather is hot in the afternoons and cold and overcast n the mornings.  June weather in October, go figure. So, that is about it for today.

Things will get better, won't they?