Saturday, June 23, 2012

I'VE BEEN ROBBED......

Not really, although it looks like it in the house at this point in time.  Friday Vet man came and took the five foot sofa for his use and also moved my seven foot sofa bed out the door.  Since I'm getting a sectional the tables, that I've had since the seventies, needed to go away too.

 I think it is time to cleanse all the memories that come associated with these items.  Plus the electric lift chair that Merle, my husband,  used prior to passing on, and a piece I detested, needed to leave too. This morning Saturday, Veterans First came and picked up all the pieces.  They can use them for their thirft store and for the men that transition out of Veterans housing after a year.

My new sofa, which I'm sure is gigantic, will take the place of the above and the Build a Sofa company will be bringing it in between twelve and two today.  I'm hoping this is cathartic and I can get things to look different around the house.  After fourteen years of living here it is really time for a change. Oof course as usual, one thing leads to another and there will be a lot more to do.

Thursday, Dez called and came over to take me to dinner.  We needed to talk after his debacle of standing me up, yet once again.  I know his life is busy and he puts to much on his plate, but enough is enough.  I wouldn't have been so upset, since this is norm for him, if he had at least said he was sorry.  Fat chance on that happening. It never occurs to him.

He ha s a job site going in Orange County so he arrived at the house around five on Thursday..  We had reservations at seven at a local Italian restaurant.  He had drink, changed clothes and we left.  We did have a pretty good talk regarding how things are between us.  His comment was I needed to know that he really liked me, he thought about me a lot and he knew that the problem was he wasn't around enough, due to his travels. I just think he is so used to being a "stray lone wolf" that it doesn't occur to him to use a little consideration.  He keeps saying that the reason my friends don't want me to be with him is that they are jealous that I'm having a good time.  His comment was they aren't going out to dinner and dancing, plays and having a close relationship, ergo, jealous!

Well, I do have a good time with him, but I also am not happy about how things are.  I finally came to the realization if I want to keep seeing him I have to take things as they are and not let it upset me.  You would think at my age I'd be a little smarter, but there is no accounting for chemistry and the feelings that brings.

We returned from the restaurant, which was very, very good and he changed clothes again and left to go back to his job site.  He has cut back on help and he said it was pretty bad for the boss to have to work a split shift.  He was planning on staying until midnight and then going home to sleep and get caught up.  He was suppose to come back on Friday but said he couldn't.....same old, same old.

So, I've decided not to be upset, take it where it goes and if I find someone else that "floats my boat" and I'll go into the sunset if that happens.  Dez is talking about where he might want to be when he retires. We have discussed him going to Paris, Dubai, Cabo San Lucas, Hawaii etc.  He is a traveler of the world and he can pretty much do what he wants when he wants.

So, I'm off to wait for the sofa guys and I need to vaccuum the carpet, again.

Tomorrow is breakfast with friends. 

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