SENIOR MOMENT.....

Even my computer is having a senior moment.  Nothing but problems with the new laptop.  This too shall pass.

It finally happened.  I had a email from a man that said, "are we still on for tomorrow."  On for what?  I couldn't remember emailing him or making any kind of plans including, remembering h is name. Early stages of Alzheimer's or I just have too many people in my life.

I emailed the man back and told him that I had been so busy, which was the truth, and that I had forgotten to write anything down, which I obviously did, and would he please refresh my memory.  We made arrangements to meet the next day in San Juan Capistrano for lunch.

I sailed down the freeway.   Normally it takes about twenty minutes to a half hour to drive the twenty miles.  This time I made it in a little over fifteen minutes.  I was a little early and the store next to the restaurant was having a Sale.  I ran into the the place and managed to try on and purchase a animal print dress in a nano second.

After making my purchase I went to the restaurant next door and waited in the lobby.  Shortly thereafter this tall grey haired man came in.  He was a lot better looking then his picture, which I had looked up on the site before I left for the town down south that I was to meet him.

After we were seated and had ordered our ice teas, I asked him what he did for a living. He replied that he was a psycho therapist and had his own practice.  Oh goody!  Free mental health.  He was reserved at the beginning. as the lunch progressed he was a little more chatty and interesting. He had a tendency to ask a lot of question and want to know about the people I know and my feelings about life.  The therapist coming out in him.  I have to say I find writing this Blog therapy and a heck of lot cheaper.

It was a pleasant lunch but I had no desire to see him again.   He also lived near San Diego which did make it close for either of us.

The following day was Nancy's birthday.  I had taken my step grand kids to lunch and then drove down to see Nancy.  I took her a piece of chocolate cake since I think everyone should have some sort of cake for their birthday.  After spending a little time with her I drove to the alteration place to pick up a dress I had left for redoing.

I was meeting another guy from another site.  This man had contacted me for almost a year and I finally relented.  He was Irish, fairly portly, but nice looking.  Also in his seventies.  I met him for an early dinner.  He was a lot of fun and we had a great conversation for several hours.  It is amazing how you can appreciate all the different types of people that are out there.  He was respectful, no sexual comments and I enjoyed him for the moment.

On the drive down to the restaurant I had a cell phone call from a man that again, I didn't recognize.  Senior moments are coming more often.  He was a semi retired lawyer and was interested in going out.  I told him I would have to think about it and he should call me the following day.

Then Mr. Studio Man called and said he had made reservations at a beach restaurant for us on Sunday night.  When I pulled into the parking lot MP was calling.(I think the boys are on the move) I thought MP was calling me because of an email I had sent  him, but no he was just calling.  Not something he usually does unless we have something planned or he is coming down to see me.  We had such a good time last week and everyone that saw us said we made a striking couple. We have so much fun going  out together.

I think the reason I can't get interested in anyone else, although I'm trying, is that he is so much fun and we have a great connection together.  He was date number two last year and he has been a constant.

So we will see what the day and tomorrow brings. I haven't been writing much due to my computer problems and now  hope they are fixed and I can continue on.

Ciao

GOOD WEEKEND...

It has been a good previous week and weekend.  I kept busy during the week with the usual things.  For some reason the everyday things make the weeks fly by.  After asking MP if he had any idea if he was going to be available and then hearing from him telling me to go on with my plans, he called.

He asked if I was available on Friday or Saturday, I picked Saturday.  When he came to see me on Wednesday his comment was that I had picked Saturday because I had another date on Friday.  I looked at him and said "no"...how about we do both nights....I never thought he would say okay, he did.

MP has to drive hours to get to my area and did so three separate times over the weekend to come down to take me out.  We had a really nice time over the weekend eating and dancing at several clubs in the area. 

A friend of mine was having a birthday party for her husband on Sunday.  I forgot to say anything to MP probably because I never thought he would be able to go.  I finally asked him to come with me and he did.  There again, the party was outside in the backyard of my friends and they had a live band which was really good.  More dancing and more food.  About forty people.  MP stayed as long as he could before he had to leave for his home which is about fifty miles from me. 

So all in all it was a great week and comfortable, nice weekend.  Now this week.

I have lunch with a girlfriend of mine today, Monday.  A doctor appointment and meeting Tuesday, I'm taking my ex husbands grandchildren to lunch on Wednesday.  Wednesday night dinner out.  Thursday a company is coming to repair my car.

I managed to somehow scrape and dent my car fender on the passenger side.  I couldn't tell you how.  I'm having it repaired by a company that comes to your house to fix dents and repaint.  I swear I'm not parking in my tandem garage ever again.  The opening of the garage door is so narrow and hard to navigate.  I did the same thing to my other car.  I either need to learn to drive or never park in the garage again.  I think never parking again is the answer. You have to pull way over to the right so the car door can be opened.  I'm beginning to feel like my mother who always dinged her car going into her garage.  Just what I need, more dollars going out the door.

I have heard from several men on the sites.  Most of these guys, other then being very flattering, want permanent relationships.  They really don't read when you reply and say that you are at a different place then they are.

So, with all the above being said I'll sign off.

COMPUTER PROBLEMS

FINALLY!  The change over to the new laptop computer has been not easy.  I lost a lot of information on my Blog but now after having a tech guy work it out for me, I think I'm back on track.

Let me go  go back to what has been going on the last week.  A very odd thing happened on two of the sites at the same time and day.  One came in from a women that said she thought I would be perfect for her brother.  Of course her brother lived in Wyoming.  Now if you know me, that isn't my end of the world.  To many open spaces. She said that he would be willing to relocate.  Right!  A cowboy for me.  Just what I need.

The other gal decided I was perfect for a friend of hers that lived in the UK....that was bad enough, but he was only five foot seven.  Does no one read.
 
So off they go.

My studio man has been calling me and emailing me a lot.  His life is more complicated then MP's if that is possible.  He finally got his elderly mother out of the hospital and now with work and last night car problems, he is just running in circles.  I'm busy most of the time and since he lives so far away I not sure this will ever work out for another meeting.  We'll see what happens.  My mind is getting a little closed off to men at this point.

I'm really not looking for anyone.  I think that everyone out there, mostly, seem to be looking for a permanent relationship.  Since I am not, at least at this point, I seem to be wasting my time and theirs. Also, now that the book is finished, I don't have a need to see as many men as I did.  It was a self discovering journey at the beginning.  I think, now that I'm almost a year into it, I don't need to go forward. 

MP came down to see me yesterday.  He always has to fight the traffic for hours to get to my place. I keep telling him I'm worth it....he must think I am a little, or he wouldn't make the effort. He did ask me to go out on either Friday or Saturday night.  I picked Saturday.  When he came down he said that I must have picked that day because I had another date on Friday.  I didn't.  I told him we could do both nights and much to my surprise he said okay.  So, we are going out dancing and for dinner. two nights in a row....I'm still a little leery of believing he is going to do what he says, we'll see.

I have a birthday party on Sunday that he could go to, but I think that might be a little too many hours for him and for me too of togetherness.

So, now that I'm back on track I'll be posting more.

Ciao

Romance Novel Men....

Back to the purpose of this Blog.  The guys, that I've been hearing from, the last couple of days, I swear have either taken English Literature or studied to write romance novels.  The prose that comes my way is way over the top.  It is a good thing I don't believe my own Press.

Some of the examples I've received the last four days are as follows: Sexxxxxxxyyyyyyy!, from a Spanish man.  a man in his thirties that wrote a full page of text of which I'll only quote a couple lines, "I know that every day our hearts would be each others and our feelings become more passionate.  Your heart would be fixed by me, all depends if you give me the chance to show you how much I care. and so forth, another thirty something, I don't think so!!)...........a Nevada man, DAMN. You are WOW!! Hello sexy lady.  I like your profile and photos.  Would love to learn more about you.  Please get back to me.  DAMN!! You are an attractive Woman.  I LOVE the words you wrote...Be still My Heart. From someone across the country.  To tell you how much I liked your profile...you're incredibly attractive, intelligent, sexy!!! Also very cute, healthy, cool and gorgeous.  Your newest admirer, A man in his fifties:  Again, a full page of prose.  "I could hardly understand what I feel for your picture and if I can feel for your picture like this then how will you be in person.  I hope you understand that it's a pouring of the heart, which I cannot keep inside of me after seeing your picture.  You are beautiful in my eyes." etc. etc. Another guy in his fifties: "Hi good looking."  You must drive men crazy you are beautiful A man from Arizona:  "Loree, you are a Stunner!! I'd like to meet you on my next LA visit." Arizona again:  "You are stunningly beautiful.  I would relocate for a women as beautiful as you."etc. etc.

It seems to me that men that write to you and say these things right off the bat are a little disingenuous.  I would like to think that women don't write to the men on these sites saying these things. I very seldom write to anyone unless politely answering and thanking them for contacting me.  I would hate to think where the emails would go should I answer more in their vein.  

I personally don't think my pictures are that provocative.  I'm dressed, not sexily, most are head shots, and I only wrote what I wanted in a man, strong, masculine, tall, although they mostly don't pay attention to the tall part, (I think they all think they are six foot tall no matter what.) etc, and put a little of my background in the body of the profile. I'm beginning to think I must be conveying something that I don't mean to convey.  Either that or the men think that by writing these things you will be thrilled to meet them.

I would hate to think what would happen if I decided to go all out and dress like a Playboy
Bunny...yeh right, at my age!!

I heard from my Studio Man today.  He was supposed to call me last night and didn't.  Well, big family emergency with a parent that fell and broke a hip etc.  He was exhausted as he had been up all night.

Nothing else big to report.  Just trying to get through the emails which at times are funny and at time come across as needy.  Maybe we are all needy in one way or the other.  I know I sure have my moments.

Love to all.

Sad Day....

My little rescue dog, Senora, who I adopted when she was thirteen and blind, had to put down yesterday afternoon.  She had kept me up the night before hacking and coughing and extremely restless.

I just knew she was near to going.  When I adopted her, my thought was to give her a couple good years.  She lasted six and was nineteen years old. She had a sweet spirit and was loved by many people.

When she was euthanized and at the very end, her tail wagged.  The Vet said that was unusual.  I took it as a sign that she was happy to be in a better place.  I got a hug from the Vet and I kissed Senor's head goodbye and left in tears.

I told most of my friends and have heard from the ones that are animal lovers right away.  MP sent me an email saying he was so sorry too.  He lost a dog that he adored.  We've all been through it and it isn't easy.  For me, this will be my last dog.

I think that today, I will make this Blog short and about her.  I'm in the process of getting her items together so I can take them to the animal shelter.  So many animals need so much.

Instead of ashes, the Vet's office gave me a clay coaster with her paw print.  I just need to bake it to set it up.  It is a good remembrance.

I hope she is where all the other doggies are and is barking at her treats.

 That's all for today.

Well, well....

Somehow I was segued into a site that I had no idea I was listed on.  I've heard from about thirty different men from this site, one who I might consider, but probably not.  He doesn't live in California but Nevada.  Really convenient, although he says he comes to SoCal every other weekend.  It seems to be the same old thing on this site as the others.

I did hear from my studio man who is knee deep in alligators.  He is trying to get things sent out from different sites to different sets.  Interesting how many different jobs there are out there that are high powered, and the busier these men are the more of them seem to gravitate towards dating sites.  I think they just don't have the time to date the old fashioned way.

Mr. Studio Man says he will call me and has been thinking about me a lot.  He has just been so busy with work.  Does this not sound familiar.  Just what I need another MP to ignore me.  I'm beginning to think that there aren't any normal men with normal jobs out there.  But then, I probably wouldn't be happy with normal...whatever that is.

I did go out today to get my manicure/pedicure done by my long time nail person.  She has been doing my nails for ten years and is a sweetheart.  After getting polished up and a semi body massage (legs, arms and neck) I drove down to the doctor's office to pick up some paperwork for a couple referrals I needed. Seems the older one gets the more one has to keep the maintenance going.

Nothing super exciting going on today, after all it is Monday.

Have a great rest of the week.

Introspection...

When I sent my book in to be edited, the comment from the editor was, "she  thought I should have had more introspection in the book."  I thought I had put some in the book,  but maybe not enough.

Introspection for me, seems to be an invasion of your personal thoughts.  I will try to put some of the things I've been feeling since I started this senior dating saga.  I don't know if it will be cathartic or just something that I should put down.  I did put enough personal things in the book that perhaps I should have kept to myself.  It isn't an easy thing to put down some of the things that transpired with the various men.  I added things and didn't put things down I could have written.

After almost a year of seeing many men and being contacted by literally thousands on the three sites I am on, I find that I'm no closer to finding someone then I was a year ago. I truly feel like I've been spinning my wheels and getting nowhere. My originally idea was to find someone to go out with on a fairly regular basis. That hasn't happened for me.  I've met men that would be happy to be with me, but I have no interest in them. There is always something lacking, mostly in me finding a connection with them.  This whole journey has not been fun and games.  Sometimes it is pleasant and most of the time it isn't.

  I suppose I should say that the only man I have a mental and physical connection with is MP and that is going nowhere.  Besides the age difference, the distance and his complicated life, plus who he is and maybe a little of who I am, I know it is just a connection that is casual. Monogamy isn't in his vocabulary and probably not in mine either. I don't know it I want a permanent relationship, but it would be nice to have someone around that is available more then once in six weeks, and then for only hours. As I said before, 95% of me wants him around and 5% wants to kick him to the curb. I really don't know how he feels about me, except for liking me.  I know he dislikes needy.

I have a very full life compared to most people my age but for some reason find myself being Margaret O'Brien when I'm alone, contrary to popular belief  I'm  alone a lot, if you remember, Margaret could cry at the drop of a hat.  That's me a lot of the time.  I don't know if I'm feeling sorry for myself or just still trying to find my footing after my husband died last year and wishing things could have been different between us at the end of his life.  It did not end well. I still carry resentment against some of the things he did prior to his dieing. This is totally counter productive and I know it.  I just can't seem to stop the thoughts.

There are times that I wish I had never met MP as I have a tendency to compare the feelings I have for him with the other men I meet.  I know most of the feelings are lust not love, but we also have a great time together, and as I have said before, " we are matched opposites," not to mention that we look good together. There is nowhere to go with him and maybe that is how I want it to be. My friends don't think so, but then they really don't know me.

It scares me to think I might get hooked up with  another man and either have to take care of him or get disappointed again. If I stacked MP up against the men I've met he is smarter, more savvy, has a better personality then all of them put together.  The bad side  of  the coin is he is self serving, really only cares about his life, is never there when you really need him, isn't dependable and just gives you lip service to shut you up, but doesn't come through on what he promises.  I'm aware of all of the good and bad and as long as I want to put up with it, then so be it.

I don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life, however long that may be.  If I knew that I would eventually be semi happy (the only totally happy are the winky) I do know that a man shouldn't define you and only you can make yourself happy.  I just have to find what makes me the happiest at this stage of my life.  So far I haven't been able to do that.

One would think that with all the attention I receive from men and women alike, I'd be thrilled to be who I am.  I just find myself seemingly going down the rabbit hole and not knowing how to stop myself. Nothing is perfect and I know that. All the things you go through and you put yourself through in ten or twenty years when your gone doesn't mean anything to anyone, most of all  you. I do believe it is live every day for the day but sometimes when your sad and really don't know why your sad, it is hard to do.

So now that I've bored everyone to death with being semi introspective I'll sign off. Sometimes I feel alright, sometimes lonely and lost, but I will conquer these negative feelings.  I guess I just need time and a new mental attitude. I will prevail. That's what I do.

Working Saturday....

Working is the right word.  Even though I do have cleaning people that come in, they only come in once a month.  It is worth it to me to have them to clean the shutters if nothing else. I found that having someone every other week is over kill, as I live alone.

With two cats and a dog and of course me, the house needs perked up by me from time to time and today was that time.  It is early evening and I have everything ship shape, now what?  I'll tell you what.  After I finished the work I decided to rest for a while and fell dead asleep.  I never sleep during the day.  Guess I needed to do that today.

I did go to the movie to see Midnight in Paris with my two friends and then to dinner afterwards at Houston's.  The movie was good, although they liked it better then I did.  It was a novelty to have a movie be shown that didn't have one swear word in it.  Goes to show they actually can talk without every word being "ef."

I've been hearing from men on the sites today that have been contacting me for months.  for some reason they keep coming back on site to me.   I haven't met any of them, my choice, and a couple of them want to set things up.  It is becoming work and not as fun as it was in the beginning.

I've been trying to locate a tenant that I had to evict last year and I think I finally, at least, found her cell phone number.  I located her Mother who said she was living in a shelter and she gave it to me.  I have a Judgement through the Courts but I know I'll never see a penny.  MP said he would call her for me and I gave him the information to do just that. 

Mr. Studio Man is swamped with work and will be for a little while longer.  Other then that I'm staying home and staying out of trouble.   I think, for some reason, that this is the time to lay low and stay home.  I just can't seem to get myself in the spirit of the dating thing.  Maybe it is because the book is finished and it seems counter productive to keep seeing people plus more then a little boring most of the time.

My good friend that lives in Minnesota said at least I get out to dinner, lunch, etc, but since the same scenario seems to be imprinted in all the minds of these guys, there are no surprises left.  I'm not interested in a bedroom scene with a myriad of guys.

So for now I'm off the grid.

Wednesday...

Yesterday I finally decided to go to the doctor to get some pills for this sinus infection I've had for a week.  I have been so tired and couldn't figure out why.  So, I got that accomplished, then off to Sears where I finally bought the filter for my ice maker.  That was the third place I tried to find the filter.  I should have started there.

My studio man emailed me and was venting about the people he was working with that couldn't seem to get the budget price right.  They told him not to worry and I told him he better start worrying if someone tells you that.  He was so sweet and said he wished he could come take care of me when I told him I was not feeling well.

I decided to go to my meeting last night at the Elks regarding the Veterans.  We packed thirty boxes to send to Afghanistan with candy, books, soap, wipes and a lot of other items that will be so appreciated.

I had dinner at the Elks and then a girlfriend and I went to another restaurant for a drink.  While I was there I met a man that had his own practice and had his PhD in Psychology.  We had a great conversation and he told me I needed to come to his group sessions to impart common sense to some of the people he sees.  I've always thought that Psychology was nothing more then common sense and for some reason most people don't have it. Certainly lack of same has opened up a lucrative field for people that want to help others.

Of course, it wasn't just conversation with him.  He wants to take me to lunch.  He is in his sixties, which is at least more acceptable then some of the men I hear from.  I'm debating whether I want to meet him for lunch or not. The reason I'm saying not is he ended up the conversation with a question.  The question was, "are you a good kisser?"  Another MAN!  I told him since I was the age I was I better know how.  That seemed to shut him up. No matter how smart, educated or not, men are men.

I'm headed out to have lunch with my neighbor who is only here for a short time so I will close for now.

Happy hump day!

A GOOD DEED...

Today was the day I met the older man for lunch.  He was very nice and was waiting for me with roses from his garden.  He was young looking and very conversational.  Again, he was ready to start cooking together and going out.  What is it with these men and cooking?  I think it is very nice that they want to do that, but I really think it would be better to wait until you know someone to suggest that scenario.

I had a very nice lunch and talk with him but I determined that we were worlds apart in thinking and way of life.  Think Sara Palin versus Clinton or Obama.  He had been in the military for thirty years and had buried two wives.  Hmmm.

He emailed me after the lunch and wanted to take me out for dinner Saturday night.  I sent him a return email saying no thank you and the usual verbage. I'm  really getting to be a pro at brushing men off.  I liked him as a person but not enough to want to see him again.  So another prospect bites the dust, if it was even a prospect.

After lunch I met the ladies from the Emblem Club at the Veterans home to give them new blankets, sheets and pillows.  The men are so grateful for anything we do for them.  It is a good feeling to know that you can give to a group that are so appreciative and one that is local, at least you know who is getting what.

Tomorrow is another Veterans meeting to discuss how we can raise funds.  We are also packing boxes with items to be sent to Afghanistan for the troops fighting over there.  We collect candy,( no chocolate,) jerky, magazines, t-shirts, toiletries, toothbrushes, paste, hand soap, etc.

So with all that being said, I will sign off until tomorrow.

Ego Fluffing....

I'm going off a couple of the dating sites soon.  I will miss the "ego fluffing" I get from the various men that contact me.  I will have to find out what the legalities of putting some of the email statements in book form would be....

This morning I heard from a man that lived in France. How close is that?  He started out by saying, "my sweet beauty."  He said he flew to L.A. a lot an would love to meet me the next time he returns.  NOT!


I've had men write the sweetest, nicest things to me.  I know it is so much B.S., but no matter what it is, it is nice to hear.  Without sounding like I'm a conceited jerk I will put a few statements verbatim down for you to read.  Remember I'm not saying that I am any of these things, but it is fun to hear and read especially at my age.

Some quotes....Hi, I truly wish I lived in Irvine, California.  Sunshine, a team of wild horses couldn't keep me away from  you!!!  You make me think of a song by TOM JONES...she's got style, she's got grace, she's the kind you want to date and take din...ner.  OK, OK bear with me.  I'm not a singer, couldn't carry a tune in a waste basket, but I know a fine lady when I see one.  Don't stop with your toe, stick your whole foot in.==, there is a fine gentlemen out there looking for you.  Hope this finds you and yours in good health and spirits.

Next quote:  r.u. from Venus...take me away and never come back....listen to me...i"m having a senior moment...over look it... WELL I'LL BE...I knew you were going to want something besides me...I knew it, I knew it,...let me look over here in the top drawer, ok I found one...a real diamond to match your beauty.  I hope your satisfied darling....

These could go on and on, but I thought I'd put a couple of them down so you all get the idea.  Ego fluffing time it is.

I have received hundreds of emails and probably have met close to  30 men or so...still haven't found what I'm looking for yet.

I do have to say that even MP is extremely complimentary. I'm going to enjoy the adoration while I can.  God knows we all age and that "I think your beautiful" thing goes away soon enough. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder afterall.    This whole thing has brought back what I had when I was a lot younger.  Nice to be able to recapture a little of it at this late stage.

Enough of me sharing.

Sunday Evening.....

Today was a stay in day.  MP was suppose to come in the late afternoon but called and said he wanted to come earlier.  From past experience I know to be ready so I have no surprises should he show up earlier then he says.  It has happened before.  I said yes because I was ready.  Make up, hair etc.

We had hours of conversation, after he arrived,  which is one of the things I like about him.  There is never a lull in the conversation from job related talk to everything in between. He did keep asking me what was wrong.  He thought I wasn't acting like I usually do.  I have to admit I was more then a little distant.  He kept saying I had a certain look in my eye.  He can read me too well.

I was thinking a lot of things.  Mostly about what I wanted to do with the rest of my life besides be available for MP.  He has never asked me to be, but I want to be.  My problem.
He calls thoughts like these "train crash" thoughts and he is so right. Sometimes you shoot yourself in the foot over thinking everything.  Mostly you can't do anything about what your thinking and things have to play out.

I am more then a little tired of people putting me in a preconceived box.  No one really knows the real me.  I wasn't me for so long while I was married it is a relief to be able to be honest about who I am, at least to myself.  We all have a public face and persona and when you find someone you can be totally yourself with it is a gift. No pretenses.

My friends want me to find someone to be with on a permanent basis and I'm not ready nor may I ever be ready for that.  The relationship I have with MP fills a need for me and I really don't care what people think about it.  I'm not thinking marriage or long term commitment.  I just want to be with someone once in a while that I enjoy and who enjoys me. It isn't perfect, but what is?

Granted right now his business is all consuming and that, for him, is a good thing.  He travels a lot for that business and I'm hoping that will slow down when he finishes his projects.  He will drive for hours to see me.  If it was just physical he could get that anywhere, as I could.  We are cut from the same cloth and are matched opposites.  I'm sure people will be appalled to hear that,  but to bad.

I have found that no one can live your life but you. If the people you have in your life make you happy then keep them.  If they don't keep you happy, move on.  I know everyone wants the best for me but it is up to me to determine that best.

I don't mean to get on a soap box but my friends have been making statements when they really don't know what I want or who I really am.  I'm sure they would be shocked should they ever find out.  Maybe when "Cougar Tracks-Adventures in Online Senior Dating comes out they will.  I'm sure it will shock some people.  Of course some of the book is real and some is made up.  I'll let people figure out what is what.  Let just say there is enough in the book to make the "Tea Party" people blush. Sex sells, right?

It was a long time since MP and I had seen each other, six weeks.  I was gone, he was gone, and we only kept in touch via email and phone.  Even he said we needed to start dating more.  Not that I've been sitting at home.  I just can't seem to find anyone that appeals to me as much as MP, especially the age appropriate men.  God spare me from my age men.

So now that I vented all that I'll close and go watch t.v.  More tomorrow.

Blogdom.....

I just finished typing a full page and it disappeared all by itself.  So, I will start again and hope that it remains long enough to post it.

Today was a beautiful day weather wise.  I got up early and decided to get myself together and go to the market.  I had decided that I was going to make home made spaghetti sauce with shrimp. That plus a salad, garlic toast, wine and mini eclairs for desert will make a nice Sunday night dinner.  Whether MP stays or not is questionable, but I really don't care if he does or not.  I've been craving the above meal for a couple of weeks so I'll be happy to eat it myself.

I also decided I needed to color my hair, which came out a really pretty color.  So that part is done for another six weeks or so.

I heard from my studio man.  He emailed me and said he was thinking about me.   Nice to be remembered.  There may be possibilities with him but I'm taking it very, very slow. I've been fooled before.  He is traveling right now and working this weekend.

I also decided to go ahead and have lunch with the ex-marine that lives in my town.  He said I would know him by the salt and pepper hair, six foot four frame and he would be holding a red rose.  So my next week is shaking out to be busy like last week.

My girlfriends want me to see the Woody Allen movie, I have a Veterans meeting, then lunch with my neighbor.  The next day lunch with a long time friend of mine, we still haven't decided where or if we will make it dinner instead of lunch.  Seems all I do is eat but so far I haven't gained any weight.  I've been trying to keep it to around fifteen hundred calories a day and it is working.  Some days I do cheat, but one has to once in a while.  Can't be all nuts and twigs.

I did miss a meeting last week that I had set up.  I was waiting to hear from the Chairman...I'm co-chair...of a fashion show we are doing.  She, I thought, was suppose to call me to tell me if the other volunteers could make it on the day we selected.  She didn't and I totally forgot to look at my appointments on my iPhone.  Not good to put them down if you don't look.  Must get my head out of my butt.  Other then that all is well.

Off to watch the rest of the Game of Thrones I DVR'd

Smile......

The studio man that took me to Ruth's Chris called me this morning.  He has had a super busy week traveling and will be out of the State this weekend.  He said he would be working on a t.v. show near LAX and would be near enough to take me to dinner again.  He promised to call me when he got settled in that area and would meet me at the restaurant of my choice. The only down side to this man is his height,  He is just an inch taller then I am and with heels I am taller.  I suppose there is Tom Cruise and everyone he married or dated is taller.   I should just get over the height obsession I have with tall men.

Although he stated that his week had not been great, he just looked at my smile on the site and it made his day better.  Nice to be complimented that way whether it is true or not.  At least he isn't letting me hang in the wind like MP does. 

Everyone is so busy.  This is a good thing because it means that things are picking up in California.  There are so many high powered people out there and I guess they go on line to find someone because they don't have time to go trolling and look for someone.  These dating sites certainly open up the field.

I know that MP is on a time crunch with building his commercial sites.  He called me Monday morning and I haven't heard from him, which isn't unusual.  He goes so fast and so far I'm surprised he can remember my name.  I'm haven't been sitting around, but for the last several days I've stayed home.

Today was a clean the house day and take care of the animals plus me.  I need to work on my nails etc.  I may even decide to read my Kindle for a change.

Just got a text message from MP (speak of the devil) and he wants to see me this Sunday.  I should just say no, but he is my poison of choice.  I think he makes me feel twenty four again and that is a good feeling.  If I can just keep it casual, in my mind, things will be fine. One thing I'm not doing is making MP my end all be all, I know it sounds like I am, but he has been around for over ten months. I also know that he isn't feasible for a lot of reasons.  As I said before, maybe this time I'll go for the gold and forget the total attraction thing.  I'm not twenty four and I do have to remember that.    Nice to have that choice at my age.

I also heard from a man that lives in my town that is seventy nine and an ex Marine.  He assured me that I didn't need to take care of him.  That was one of the things I put into my profile.  I didn't want to date an older man because I didn't want to take care of anyone again.  He invited me to lunch today, but I declined.  I told him we could possibly make it another day and I'll see what he says when or if he responds.  A plus with this man is he is six foot four and lives close.

So life is fairly busy and even if I don't have something to do every minute of everyday I'm doing fine. There are good days and bad days and I just have to remember that things do get better and life is what you make it.

Enjoy your weekend.

A Glitch......

I've been off the grid due to a glitch in Blogspot.  The Gods of Computer Hell have been giving me fits.  Finally everything showed up like it was suppose to.  Don't ask me how it came to be.  Whatever I did, with help from a dear long time friend in Las Vegas,  it worked this time, so here I am.

I heard from MP via phone on Memorial Day morning and we had a fairly long conversation about his work, what I'd been doing and generalities.  He is trying to get things done on a job site and needs to be there to ride herd on the crews.  Everyone was working overtime to move things along and he felt he should be there to be sure they kept it up. He says he will see me this week, we'll see.

I was contacted by a man that is in the television business for CBS.  He was coming down to Orange County for a meeting with a Producer and wanted to take me to dinner at Ruth's Chris.  I really didn't know what he looked like, but thought I'd take a chance and meet him at the restaurant.  It was a good meeting and a wonderful dinner.

He was very complimentary and a take charge kind of guy.  He ordered dinner for me and talked about interesting things.  He also seemed to be respectful, but after Mr. Nice Guy, who I thought was respectful and wasn't, I'm reserving judgement.  This man said that he felt that a man should work to take care of a women. What a concept.  I'm assuming he could well do that as he was wearing a very, very expensive gold Rolex and diamond watch plus driving a sport car that costs more then I make in over two years.

He talked about all the interesting places he had been in his thirty year career.  Yes, this one is in his middle sixties.  He said he would love to show me an area on the Aegean Sea and another five star place outside of Mexico City.  I wish I could be excited about doing some of these things, but everyone is looking for a one on one relationship.  I'm not. At least not yet. I  guess I need to change my mind set and go for the gold. 

He was flying up to Northern California for a job for several days and said he would call me when he gets back.  I did email him and thank him the next day for a great dinner and good conversation.  I also told him I wasn't at the same place in my life that he was in his. I said if he would have patience I would see what happened down the line. Since he is fully invested in working , it may work out.  Neither of us have a lot of time and he lives about an hour away from me.  I certainly have experience in not having someone around.  MP has made me realize that it probably is okay not to have someone on your doorstep all the time.  Of course if MP wanted to be on my doorstep I probably would think that was just fine and dandy. Obviously I'm not thinking with my head where MP is concerned.

Today I also met some ladies that I worked with over twenty years ago.  We had a great lunch at Bistango and played catch up.  My life really is pretty full and I'm blessed so I shouldn't complain.  There are time I sit around and feel sorry for myself and I need to remind myself there is no reason for that.

I have a lot of friends, I can date at will....although not all those dates are wonderful....but you do learn from everyone, and I am my own person.  I was sitting around yesterday wondering what I was gong to do with the rest of my life, however long that may be, and I know I'm the only one that can decide what I want to do.  So, I need to get crackin...

Hoping the glitches stay away......Ciao