YACHT CLUB....

I just returned from a lovely lunch at a Newport Beach Yacht Club with Veteran man.  He is good company and seems to like me.  We sat outside and the weather was glorious.  Sunny with a light breeze and not a soul out on the water.  It is interesting to see all the yachts just sit week after week.  I wonder if any of them ever go out on the water.  Probably not. I always think they are such a great waste of money.

Veteran man wants to take me out to lunch again next Wednesday.  Do you suppose this will become an ever Wednesday occurrence? Only if I let it.

I now have the rest of the day to decide if I should go to the grocery store or head out to the ribbon shop for the extra bolts of ribbon for the thirty center pieces I need to get done for the next State function at the Hilton Hotel being held  in Ontario.

I have been feeling like I really need to re-evaluate my life and sit and have a good talk with myself.  Sometimes I feel like things are spinning out of control and I don't know how to stop it.
I feel okay mentally and just need to start afresh.  The last two years have been a whirlwind, all self induced.  It's kind of stop the world I want to get off,  type of life.  I'm planning on getting off and getting off now.  I think when you get to be my age you had better know what you want and where you are going.  I can't take many more ups and downs.

Since I never had a partner and always had to do things on my own I should be able to come to come good conclusions.  I'm hoping so.  I'm not pleased with the way things have been going and I'm the one doing it to myself.

Desi emailed  yesterday to ask what I wanted to do for my birthday.  I emailed him back and told him I didn't want to plan my own birthday, but gave him a few suggestions.  He emailed back saying, "never mind."  I know he is swamped at work, but he'll manage to arrange something.  He is my take charge man.  He said he was just checking to see if I wanted to do something special.  Since this is Orange County, special isn't in the cards.....it is such a boring County.  Sometimes I just want to run down the streets screaming........there has to be more to life.

Take care all, more later.