I probably should take the heading of Online Senior Dating off of this Blog since I've been off those sites for months. Now that I've wasted three years of my life with Bruno I feel I really am to old to get back into that fray. It isn't that I can't meet men, I do, but I just can't meet one I like. I guess that is why I was so taken with Bruno. We had such a strong chemistry and compatibility. So much for that idea
Through the last three years off and on I've dated doctors, lawyers, judges, business men, stockbrokers, you name it. I've found that there wasn't one of these men that didn't have one thing on their mind. My friend blames it all on Viagra. She may be right. You either have chemistry with them or not and not is a big word in my thinking. I guess that is why I know so many women that prefer to be alone. It is such a hassle.
Yesterday I sat in a pile on the couch and didn't do one thing. I had a long talk with myself about going onward and upward. Today I feel a lot better and will try to organize my "train crash" thoughts into a more positive look forward.
I'm going to a meeting tonight for the 2nd Annual Marine Corps Birthday Ball. I wasn't going to get involved again, as it is a lot of work. Considering I have nothing else to do at this point I at least will have a focus instead of sitting around saying, " poor me."
As my one friend points out, most of us are very blessed. We have a roof over our heads, lots to eat, friends that love us, and general good health. I am trying to remember this and not be maudlin about my goodbye to Bruno, which was going to happen sooner or later. There were a few reasons I was still hanging on having to do with an investment I made with him and others in Arizona. I may have shot myself in the foot by ending our relationship, but for my sanity I just couldn't continue. His ground rules were all for him and I was stupid enough to agree. I know myself and I don't like to share.
Today is another day and I have lots to do around the house before I head out to the meeting this evening. Positive is going to be a word I'm going to get into my vocabulary.
Through the last three years off and on I've dated doctors, lawyers, judges, business men, stockbrokers, you name it. I've found that there wasn't one of these men that didn't have one thing on their mind. My friend blames it all on Viagra. She may be right. You either have chemistry with them or not and not is a big word in my thinking. I guess that is why I know so many women that prefer to be alone. It is such a hassle.
Yesterday I sat in a pile on the couch and didn't do one thing. I had a long talk with myself about going onward and upward. Today I feel a lot better and will try to organize my "train crash" thoughts into a more positive look forward.
I'm going to a meeting tonight for the 2nd Annual Marine Corps Birthday Ball. I wasn't going to get involved again, as it is a lot of work. Considering I have nothing else to do at this point I at least will have a focus instead of sitting around saying, " poor me."
As my one friend points out, most of us are very blessed. We have a roof over our heads, lots to eat, friends that love us, and general good health. I am trying to remember this and not be maudlin about my goodbye to Bruno, which was going to happen sooner or later. There were a few reasons I was still hanging on having to do with an investment I made with him and others in Arizona. I may have shot myself in the foot by ending our relationship, but for my sanity I just couldn't continue. His ground rules were all for him and I was stupid enough to agree. I know myself and I don't like to share.
Today is another day and I have lots to do around the house before I head out to the meeting this evening. Positive is going to be a word I'm going to get into my vocabulary.
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